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Sunday, 12 April 2009

  • One small heartbreak, one giant leap backward

    He wants me, he wants me not. He wants me, he wants me not...

    He wants me as 'close friend', he wants me not as his girlfriend.

    In the world where we move forward all the time, there exists such an unthinkable possibility: from lovers to friends.

    "You were part of me. Not anymore"

    "But I still care for you."

    "You're my very close friend."

    Why on earth are the words that he spoke contradict so harshly?

    How does one demote from being a lover of several years to a simple ordinary friend?

    Hello, either you want me entirely or you don't. You want me as a friend, yet you can't stand the thought of having me as a girlfriend.

    And they say women are complicated.




    The friend request on my screen remains unanswered.




Monday, 26 January 2009

  • The part where the head collides with the heart

    Ahhhh I just broke up with him- yet my head is saying yes and my heart says 'Are you sure?' :(

    I came out from a super long relationship, 6 years anyone?

    Mind you, the 6 years involved 1 major breakup, 5 or 6 almost breakups, 1 cheating episode and loads of petty arguments.

    Yes, that plainly spells out "Why are you still holding on??"

    Why is it when its so obvious that the relationship is doomed, but my heart is still aching?

    Did I love him? Yes, I did. I still do, considering the history of our relationship.

    But when there's plainly no future (His and my religion clashes- bad), I should have just stop it right there and there.. right?

    Is it so bad to think of the future than to live in the 'now'?




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